Mass hysteria

Current Mood : Confused
Current Music : Nick Beat - Technodisco (Pascal F.E.O.S. Remix)

Wow, I think this is the first or second post that I blog WITHOUT a Hiptop ( which would explain why things are suddently colored or in bold ).

Ok, lots of weird ass shit is happening in my life right now. For one, today, me and Annick paid the loft's security deposit therebt securing the space. It's now officially ours. By deduction, this also means I'm officially moving by March 1st, officially making the remaining days the only time I have left to pack, get rid of the stuff I want to sell of drop off to various charities and such ( like books and clothes ) and most likely start off a new job.

The weirdness resides with my current girlfriend's attitude. Our relationship was all good, lovey-dovey stuff until 2 weeks ago. The " I love you " and " you are so the woman of life " messages moreless came to a screeching halt. January 29th, she went to one of our mutual friend from work, got unbelievably high off a cocktail of drugs, wrote a slew of incoherent text messages that, quite frankly, got me concerned. The next few days, she barely messages me anymore, doesn't reply to her messages and eventually tells me she's not sure about moving in together anymore and, in fact, isn't even sure we are still together.

It should be noted that before she told me this, I ran 742 possible scenarios as to what the fuck was happening with her, from her just being stressed out to her sleeping with some guy that saturday night and she can't tell me about it.

Regardless, I am told at this point that I lack experience and I'm childish. Could be true about the childish thing although I mentioned I would try and make it a bit more mature. She reluctantly agreed because she's one of these people who believe that I'm programmed this way, it's part of my character and I can't change. I hope to God she notices the effort I'm willing to put into this because that week had the psychological effect of me walking barefoot in a minefield. I went from super-depressed to us hooking up and me being super happy then back to depression become of the " not so sure about our relationship ". So much fun ( read : a cold steel bullet through my head sounded just about lovely at that point ) !





God, I could finish this but I'm falling asleep...more later on the conclusion of our now iffy relationship.

posted by Your humble servant @ 5:19 AM