Like, oh my God, it's, like, unbelievable !

Current Mood : 80% Happy
Current Music : The Eternals - Andromeda Gate

Words cannot describe the overwhelming sensation of confusion ( and
nausea, what with the incessant heatwave gripping this city )

Ending a relationship is one thing but when another one stems out from
it, it's unsettling. I'm slowly developing feelings for this
out-of-the-ordinary girl at work. The problematic aspect of this is,
aside from the obvious past relationship thing, she's the type of girl
I've dreamt about for years...and I've seen countless times in raves
when I was younger and she ended up working @ Fido by a weird twist of
faith.

I am therefore currently mesmorized by this girl which can turn out to
be rather dangerous for me since she represent just about everything I
like, admire or catches my eye. Physically & psychologically. She is
considered a freak by society's standards and I haven't been more
attracted to a woman in years. She sports 3 piercings on her face alone,
just to give you a hint.

I'll try and get a pic up here soon. You'll be able to see the beauty
beneath the freak.

Recently, it's been an emotional rollercoaster and if it wasn't for her,
I'd be in a white padded cell cursing loudly and mumbling something
about a conspiracy involving the 3rd coming of Hell's overlords and
massive alien invasions ( Constantine & War of the Worlds respectively
). And it's not because I have feelings for her, it's because, aside
from my mother - who left the dating circuit a long time ago, bless her
heart - I have absolutely no one to talk to regarding this situation.
I've managed to lose track of all my friends while in this relationship
I just ended.

It has also come to my attention that we seem to share a sort of
symbiotic connection between each other where we are slowly noticing
numerous psychological similarities, shared pains, worries and past
damageable relationships. We also like similar things and respond to
various stimuli the same way. But we seemed to have unconsciously
agreed to take things at a deliberately slow pace in order to avoid
inflicting even greater pain on two otherwise emotionally fragile
individuals.

I will keep you updated on further developments as to how things
progress in that department.

posted by Your humble servant @ 1:26 AM